My darkest fear

Dear noelle,
Im writing this at work because I miss you.
Let me start this out by saying, im afraid...
As a child I wasn't allowed to be afraid, I had to be there for my brother and sister, I had no room for fear, for it is fear that would become my very downfall. Noelle, im scared, I shake at night to think you'll grow away from me, that our absence from each other will be our downfall. Ive  had so many friendships where I was told I was loved, but it was so dependant on physical presence. But Noelle, I love you, and no matter how hard it may be, I will always be  at ur side. Im so excited to see the Lord work this semester, to open our hearts for him, for seeing,his blessings.. U make me love the Lord more and more every day Noelle,  my best friend.. Te Amo, I need your prayers,
Truly yours,
Levi