a day of highlight :)

As you have already alluded to the highlight of my day (barnes and nobel,) ill tell you about my second highlight... Babe your meal was delicious, ive never ever ever had a salad that.... sophisticated, i felt like a rich snob eating in a palace, it was wonderful. ,Accompanied with root beer and my bagel thing, i was in heaven. love, i want to thank you for everything.. for the gifts, the trust, the help, for listening,,, i appreciate every moment, everythought you give me and i thank the Lord for you. I thank the Lord for you,,,, i don't mean that lightly noelle, i certainly mean it, he blessed me with the most selfless, caring, beautiful, and talented person i know. 

I woke up yesterday with a sense of,, sorrow? for the lack o f a better word... i know you love me princess, i know you wouldnt change me and care for me as i am and im so thankful for that babe.... but i feel so badfor not having more talents, more money, better looks, a better past, sillier humour,,,, popularity,,,, you deserve the very best and i know im far from it babe,,,, but you love me, and that is sooooooooo very humbling,,, i lovr you with my whole heart Noelle, you deserve my very best because you are a gift from the Lord.  I Thought of our future the whole time at barnes and noble,,, and although it appears to be in the distance, i am happy, because it is with you.. i cannot help but watch you smile and talk and laugh and feel a sense of joy and peace and love. 

I apologize this post is scattered and sporatic princess, im exhausted and need your kisses. Tommorow will be a rough day for me,,,, 8 years since dad died . i can see it just like it was yesterday :/,,,,Im going to do my very hardest to be strong, to smile and stay happy and joyfull,, but i need your help and prayer. babe im holding on the the Lords promise of happiness: You... im holding on to the gift he has given me and im neverletting go of the friend who has never let me go alone. i love you, please pray for me as u read this... sweet dreams babe

Tebya Leblyu,

01001100 01100101 01110110 01101001 (levi)

ps. yes thats binary :)

Surprises

Sometimes in the midst of a downpour, the reflection of a rainbow in the sleeting mist is soooo wonderful.... I'm so tired, and stressed, and upset, and disappointed, and sick, and sad, and depressed, and miserable, and frustrated, and annoyed, and restless, and lonely, and tired, and tired, and tired..... and it's only Tuesday. Holy cow. And yet today, God gave me an unexpected surprise.... he gave me two lovely hours with my best friend. Just a bright splash of color across this dreary day. Just seeing his smile and buying him Starbucks and finding out what his favorite music is and watching him banter with my brother... it was so nice. Just, inexplainably nice. It gave me some hope of happiness to grasp in the midst of my tumbling, churning emotions.
I miss you so much.
I really, really miss you.
I wish so badly it were Saturday, but in the light of my desperation; those fleeting two hours seems so mercilessly cruel.

Just a note!

So I'm on break at work and I get off in 10 minutes and I'm soooo tired and hot which is very odd for me, because I'm usually freezing. And I'm not sleepy but I feel like my feet are heavy. Does that make sense? I want to go for a long walk and shake the heaviness from my shoulders and the cobwebs from my brain... I would walk up to our secret hangout by the grove and remember our memories, and watch the sunset fall across Nichols Hills like a tumbling stick of cotton candy, blue and pink across the dimming sky... I miss you. I miss you every minute that you're not around... I sometimes wonder what would happen if Levi were here right now? I'm never sure how your presence changes the whole world for me, but, it does... I think the scrapbook is a great idea, babe. I have a bunch of random scrapping materials because back in the day (aka Chicago) I used to make cards for people's birthdays and holidays and stuff. Then, I stopped......... I was almost going to suggest it, but, I wasn't sure... I want to, though.... It will be so much fun, I think.... Baby I miss you and I can't wait till we spend the next five minutes together.... even five minutes, so incredible... every second that our eyes lock and I feel my heartbeat both speed up and calm down... it's so surreal =) Baby I miss you.... I love you so so so much....
Will you leave me a voicemail on break? =)
Tomorrow is the last day of January, baby.
Remember making our New Years resolutions together? Remember that night together in the car? It seems like so long ago... and then agian, it seems like yesterday....
This post isn't about anything really, except how happy I am that my AMAZINGLY GENIUS best friend fixed my computer and now I can blog, blog, away to him.... I miss my best friend. =) He makes me sooooooo happpppyyyyyy..... =))
Hugs baby....

Pictures

So you know what?
The picture of you and me at the top of this blog, outside IHOP that wonderful, sunny winter day? I love it more and more. If you ever get around to asking me out and we become official (oh, wow!) I am going to print it out in high quality and frame it and put it on my bureau so I can see it every day. =)) Yesterday you showed me the picture of me, on your phone, and that surprised me so much... I loved that. =) Mmm baby we need to get some pictures!! I keep thinking that. In fact, I went and put my camera in my purse on Saturday and then totalllllly forgot about it..... yeah. My bad. lol Mmmm but I want to remember these days, and pictures are such a great way to hold memories clear and accurate in your head.... I want a gazillion pictures of you all over my mirror and my wallet stuffed full!!! =D Cuz you are sooooo cute.... and I wuv you..... so so so s'much. Like, BUNCHES. =D
Anyways.... I'm gonna come attack you with a camera one of these days.... just be warned =)) And you have to remind me on Saturday, okay!!?? thanks. =))
And... I have to end this and dash off to work even though I don't waaaaaant to baby.... I jsut want to come throw rocks at your window and coax you to come out into the sunshine with me and chase me along the river and tackle me into the grass and kiss me and make me laugh =)) and share a slushie and go for a long drive and and listen to music and and just be with you and share this day with you...........

One month down

Noelle, it has been 691,200 seconds since our last post, and thats sooooo sad.... I found a picture for you :) a turtle and lily, just for u sweet girl. You made my day, my week, this year precious girl,, with your love, your smiles, just by being yourself. laying with you in the sun was wonderful noelle, it was amazing, to hear your heart and feel you close. I made a pinky promise with you today, to marry you and never leave you, and i ment it. Im not sure what i'd like to blog about today, theres soooo much that happened today noelle, from starbucks in the grass to *almost* dancing to a band, to praying at a panera table. i know this, that you are the most amazing person i've ever known... im praying for you sweet princess. you are  wonderful, amazing beautiful, perfect.. 

"The king shall joy in thy strength, O LORD; and in thy salvation how greatly shall he rejoice! Thou hast given him his heart's desire, and hast not withholden the request of his lips. Selah.

Babe, im thankful that the Lord brought you into my life, it has not been the same since he introduced you to me... never forget our pinky promise or our time together. 

Whats been on my mind lately? well besides small things like my car or schoolwork or work,, ive been thinking of us alot. Theres alot to use babe, we have our baggage and lives and all we have to offer to each other and the more i know you, the more i appreciate you and feel honored to know your past. and as we know each other, our lives become intertwined babe.

 

And if one prevail against him, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken." Our lives are alot like a rope, at times their battered, frayed, torn, and mended. My sister actually showed me how to braid, its fairly simple, yet it exponentially increases the tension strength of the rope. its amazing to realize how our lives are strengthening each other's and how the Lord is in the midst of both our lives. Its difficult to braid a rope of two strands; just as it would be difficult to raize a relationship of just you and me without God.. but the strength and key to the power of the rope comes from that third strand, the foundation needed for full sustainability. And babe, our lives have been tattered, torn, tangled, been acrossed a sea of turmoil and frayed. But the Lord mended our lives, and strengthened us by giving us each other in the midst of his presence, and that is entirely wonderful Noelle.  I cannot help but think of myself being broken, thats all i've ever  known, but you help me babe, sunday was wonderful,,, u don't see me as broken, You see someone who is mended babe, and that means so much to me. Thank you for the Joy you've given me, and the trust, and faith in me... and everything Noelle :) i appreciate and love you more than anything. Never forget today Noelle and our pinky promise, or our embrace, our intimate love or our smiles of happiness, for every second together braids our cord together. I love you noelle.. one month down, only a few more to go :)
I Love you baby girl :)
Alot
Alot
Alot :)
my snow princess take care,
Levi Pierce




PS. Your sooooo cute
P.S.S I love hearing you sing while you work
P.S.S.S MUAH!!!!


Random Project ideas, ill start the list, ummmm build a computer together and write a storyy together

Our Sky

Last Saturday, wrapped safely in the arms of my best friend, I saw the most beautiful star gleaming through the twilight. The sparkling, perfectly-placed gem was all alone looking over the cold, lonely earth and I gazed back up at it with cold, lonely eyes. The few precious moments I was holding in my hands with the love of my existence was soon slipping away, and I would soon be alone as well in the huge, empty world. But before he left, he picked me up and held me high up and twirled me around and captured me in a long, wonderful hug. Over his shoulder, the amethyst horizon of the south had changed. Another star was shining in the great sky, sharing its prism of light with its distant lover to the north. If the first just waited a lonely while, the second would come to be with it. The thought was so poignant... 

Two are better than one...

The two stars are really not two stars. 

One is a star, and the other is a planet. 

Rigel is the sixth brightest star in our galaxy, the early debut with a lonely post high in the vast heaven. She is the daughter of Antares, the chief of all stars, and her name means "foot." Rigel is also knows as Orionis, and she is the left foot of the celebrated constellation Orion. She is the brightest star in the constellation and the most luminous star in the whole Milky Way. They call her a navigational star, because she is so easily located and uniquely placed, but more importantly - she is visible from the farthest reaches of all seven seas.

I thought that Venus would be the planet we saw, but it is actually Jupiter. Associated with the greatest gods of conquest in mythology, Zeus and Thor, it was named by the Romans originally after their god Jupiter and means "father of the sky." It is the fifth planet from the sun, but the largest in the whole solar system. It shines brightly, the third brightest celestial object in the night sky, rising into the heavens in sequence with the sun's setting. An amazing historical notation is that this planet and its mythological fame is mentioned in the book of Acts in relation to the Gentles in Ephesus. 

Rigel and Jupiter....

Star and planet....

Far apart and close together....

Perfectly set by God to share the fall of darkness into night.

I love you.

Your star,

Noelle

Ocean Eyes

Dear Noelle,

Precious Noelle im thinking of u as you are asleep warm and cozy oh how i'd love to kiss your cheek and hold u tight. im slightly scatter brained tonight, a million things in my head at once. I'm exhausted, i just want to fall asleep and never wake up it feels like... The ocean has been on my mind alot lately, im not quite sure why, in a world of chaos, the ocean keeps me calm. I remember the first time i saw the ocean, it was in Astoria, Washington :) i couldn't fathom the size of it, so large in size it was immeasurable. Once day i want to hold ur hand and walk down the beach barefoot with u in the sunrise. I want to write in the sand, "i love noelle" and build a sand castle with you. i want to hear the waves and look deep into your eyes babe. ur eyes remind me of the ocean, so much unfathomable beauty... Beauty reaching  far beyond the horizon... Noelle, im in love with u, never change princess... ur erasing the bad times in my life by outweighing them with amazing moments of happiness babe, i dont feel sad anymore, i wake up with a purpose it seems....

I remember.... Dad's "Projects" with me, he always had something planned to do with me and forrest, take apart an engine, build a kite, make a dream catcher, bake brownies,,,, but my favorite one was my boat... i remember dad helped me build a boat out of a milk carton, he disassembled an old hand fan with me and salvaged the little electric motor on the inside. he then built a little propeller from a tin can an fashioned it so at the stern of the "boat." ill never forget working on that little boat with him and working the hot glue gun the make it water tight :)  and strategically placing the batteries in a pill bottle and sealing them from the water and using a light switch on the top of the boat to activate the motor,,, idk babe,,, it was moments like those that made me so interested in technology, every single time i take apart a computer or anyhthing of the sort i feel exactly as i did as a little kid, so much curiosity to the point of adventure... 

Noelle, ur my best friend... ive given u so much of my past, its amazing. i never thought i could trust anyone as much as i have u babe,  i trust u so much and i know you will be there for me. words cannot even begin to describe how u make me feel,,, i love u... Someday i am going to marry you Noelle, for two are better than one..I thank the Lord for raising up such a beautiful young Godly woman, with eyes like the  ocean, and beauty beyond the sea... thank you for everything my dear Noelle... 

To my girl forever,

Levi