Social Life

Okay, babe, I can still see that look in your eye when you said to me, "We need to try to be more social this semester." Scolding, almost, as if I didn't try enough before; firm, as if you were afraid I'd dodge away from the request; and almost questioning, as if you weren't sure exactly what I would be thinking.
Well, I'm not sure what I really am thinking, babe. I just know I try so hard and yet it seems to always be a massive waste of effort, time, and emotion. =( I've kind of adapted the expectation that I have no friends. And unless someone is going to take the effort to try to become friends with me, I'm just not going to have any friends... and as lonely as it is, I'm okay with it, because trying and getting burned all the time is even more miserable. Idk.
But I think having friends is good for us... There is a verse in proverbs that says, "Iron sharpeneth iron, so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend." I know they are good for encouragement, and they can help us grow, and be used of God. It's good to have a social life. As much as I'm all wrapped up around you, I want you to have friends and be able to get away and have a guy's night or whatever... I don't want you to miss that. And this is my last year here... if I don't make friends, then I won't have the chance ever again to make friends from Bible college... it'll just be whoever at church or at work I am around... I don't know.
I was thinking about the top people at the school I actually like. Surprisingly, there's more than I thought... I jsut wanted you to know them, so you can tell me what you think... and I want to see the school from your perspective, too, and maybe we can pray and just ask God to give us (1) the opportunity to build good friendships, and (2) the right people... Maybe he will give us new students we don't even know yet, I don't know.

I think top of my list is Eric Maddox Furan, which of course means his girlfriend Kayla too. I just love his personality, his parents, the fact we are both MK's, and how he treats others. Kayla wrote me a FB message once, do you remember? When I was really struggling last semester... randomly appeared in my message box. Said she was praying for me, even though she didn't know me really well. It meant so much... I still remember. =)
Bobby Harrell. He still owes me lunch! lol haha I don't even remember how that got started...
Mark Martinez & Hannah Wallace (the only RA I respect lol)
Joy Hinton. She has some rough edges but she is so passionate about God, loves thrift store shopping, and is the only girl who has ever invited me out off campus (pizza and a movie at Mallory Shook's).
Kate Walley. To an extent. She's too preoccupied lately with the fact that she's single. =/
Lori and Mitchell. I know them through you. I would like to try to be friends, like, real friends. The ones whose number you have in your phone and you would call up to hang out.
Gary Latin, Jed Brown... I know they are your friends, and I want to see you all get to hang out (more than once!) It would be nice to be on a talking basis so at least they don't feel awkward around me, you know?...
Zhenya Demyanovna (Olesya's sister). SHe was always so sweet. Not a big fan of Yulia, she was very vain. But Zhenya and even Olesya and Sebastian... they are all so cool. I would love to hang out with Russians more, babe, really.....
Brittany Moore (I think it is Moore). The redhead, JS's friend? She would always smile and say hi to me, directly to me, and not just politely in passing. I really liked her... I liked her style too, but I liked how she treated me.

I can't think of anyone else right now...