today at work

Hey baby i love you i miss you!! so today i revamped the blog, gave it a shot, if it doesnt work or you don't like it just tell me and ill revert it :) im certainly any good at designing :) baby work was hard, everyone who has been there an amount of time is frustrated for picking up slack of a few select newer people. i was everywhere i did everything and i pulled my hair to get out on time baby. i placed new rules in effect starting today: no phones or mp3's on their behalf, any time they leave other than their designated task they Must report to me or a member of managment, no leaving the line during the truck unless in dire emergency, and everyone needs to respect each other... i stopped everything today as we were pulling the truck and had a meeting with them. it hurts that i have to be so strict yet its sadly become neccesary. i love you babe. today i was so strict, i was stern yet had to be compassionate. no joyful playing around or smile. just business.  sad it had to come to that today baby.
My day:
Woke up 15 minutes after 3 o'clock
set up truck, paperwork, get the truck rolling
\two trucks: a 1900 and a 1700 peice truck
first truck: had the new guy throw it and we were finished 15 after 6... only 15 minutes late, not bad. not great,
sent them off to break as i and my manager casey set the next truck
Second truck: carl volunteered, fairly consistent pace as he threw it, yet the small 1700 turned into a disaster, we had full sized airconditioners roll off the line, about 60 pounds each: we ended up with 7 pallets of airconditioners as i stacked every single one.
second truck done at 8:30 only 30 minutes late.

that pretty much set the day, the two new guys walk around lazily, constantly taking "bathroom breaks" checking phone and pretty much do nothing, another employee edward fuels their pace with his constant complaint of never being payed enough for the work... i have never been racist ever, but needless  to say i should point our their all black and think im a slave driver.
while pulling the frieght i noticed they walked outside to their car, i talked to shaun to set the meeting and shaun and i asked where they have been and blatently lied saying they were helping a customer. they were hanging out in their car.... baby im babysitting these two new guys and their slack reflects on me :( its stressful baby but all i can do is pray. the Lord  has been good to me for allowing to be in the position of leadership, ive learned so very much. its not a dictatorship, but a leading of example. i miss you, tday wore me out babe, i crossed this finish line with a crash landing. i love u baby thank you for the encouragment today baby it ment so very much. tebya leblyu i missest u :) patrick says hi :) i say hi :) muah baby girl

Hope

Dear Levi,

Today I held the end of my exile in my very own two hands and read the letters black against the crisp white letterhead. For the first time in... a year... the night of July 4th may finally be able to sink in my past. I am overwhelmingly grateful. As I think about the magnitude of this day, I find myself so glad that you were there to share that moment with me. I feel like a huge, invisible weight that has been tied to my feet, dragging me down into the murky uncertain depth of the ocean, has suddenly been wrenched free - and I am light again, light enough to swim towards the surface of the waves, where faint sunlight sparkles just out of reach. I am oh, so, grateful. To you, and to God. Thankyou for not giving up on me.

It's been a long, hard year. It is coming to a close, and new challenges will await us this summer. I hope that the principles we've won during the days of school will not be lost, and we'll face the unknown with renewed enthusiasm as school ends. I'm going to be here for you, every day this summer - even when I'm away for the weddings. =) You are my best friend and I want to be the best friend I can be back.

There is so much facing us! I know soon you will write my dad, and I should write your aunt and uncle, and then Lord willing.... we'll be official. Wow. I don't feel ready! And yet, I am so ready. It's an odd sensation. New jobs, too, for both of us. New daily routines. I'll be a senior this fall! And Kendon will be here. You'll be taking hard courses. Somehow, all of this is going to be okay. I just know it. I know it will be hard, but as long as we have each other, and follow God, it's going to be okay.

The other night I was dreaming of Yakima. It was funny, because the vineyards and garden that you talk about morphed into my orchard home in the rolling hills of Visoki in my dream. Those were some of my best years, out on the village, among the apples and wild berries and wheat fields. I miss it. The city is growing old to me right now. I am looking forward to seeing Yakima. And your home. And your church. And your family and friends. I am anxiously looking forward to the day we stake our own place, our own real home.........

I love you.
With alllllllllllllllllll my heart.
Hugs&kisses

Love,
Noelle

Halcyon

Remember that song by owl city? Halcyon? i decided to look up the definition: :)

1. calm; peaceful; tranquil: halcyon weather

2. rich; wealthy; prosperous: halcyon times of peace.

3. happy; joyful; carefree: halcyon days of youth.

Oh the halcyon days with my noelle, babe, i spent a few minutes today going back through our blog, so precious, the pictures, the stories, the memories, so wonderful babe, it is may 2nd. its done, we made it baby, i can see the finish line, i miss you with al my heart darling, i cannot express how precious and thankful i am for you. im praying for you baby girl, oh so much i adore you with everything i have.  thank you for everything, for the memories and laughter and hope, and the faithfullness that you have shown me. i couldn't ask for a more encouraging, loyal, special, talented, dedicated, and beautiful young lady to spend my life with. i am praying for you darling, every night as i lay my head down, every morning, and every afternoon. i'm blessed to call you my best friend. do you remember sitting in the booth at chick filet baby? making our blog? such a good memory, hard to believe it was in january. so long ago.

"Today

Today, Levi is with me. We're sitting at Chick Filet eating nuggets and a club sandwhich and it's freezing in here. lol But my best friend is with me, and that makes everything perfect.

So.... here's to a new blog. =)

I hope that it will help us stay together over this semester.... when it will be hard to be together in person.

I love you Levi.

With all my heart.

Please don't ever, ever, ever forget it...

Don't ever forget today.

Your girl,

forever,

Noelle <3

My best friend, you love me, and never fail to show it, what more could i ask for? thank you, for being my friend, thank you baby girl, i cannot wait to spend my life with you princess. i have been so blessed, praying for you, love you miss you, adore you. sweet dreams baby girl.

May!!!!!!!!

May 1st!!!!!!!
May!!!!!!
I look back and think about December, new years, every excruciating month of this semester... and here we are. The very end. Ten, and I repeat, TEN, days and counting! Oh, so close. So sweetly close. I can almost taste it =)
Thank you. For getting me through this semester every day. For your friendship, always there. For your love, proved over and over again. For your prayers, which were answered in so many ways. Thank you Levi.
I can't wait until school is over. Graduation night I plan to jump on you and get a BIG HUG and twirled allllllll around =))))))
Keep running baby. Keep running =)

Finish Line

"To give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the gift. -steve prefontaine"

"In running, it doesn't matter whether you come in first, in the middle of the pack, or last. You can say, 'I have finished.' There is a lot of satisfaction in that."
 -Fred Lebow, New York City Marathon founder

"Every day is a good day when you run."
-Kevin Nelson

"No one ever drowned in sweat."
-Author Unknown

"Don't bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself."
-William Faulkner

Know ye not that they which run a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run that ye may obtain. And every man that striveth for the mastery is temperate in all things. now they do it to obtain a corruptable crown; but we an incorruptable. I therefore so run not as uncertainly; so fight I, not as one that beateth the air; But i keep my body under subjection: lest that by any means when i have preached to others, i myself should be a castaway.


Just some final stretch motivation. one week of classes one week of finals, almost there little noelle. i know your tired, and exhausted, in all aspects. I know life has been hard, that every day mounts upon the last... but keep running baby, don't give up, finish like you havnt even started yet. my darling, my best friend, do you remember seeing me at the airport? Do you remember orange leaf? the laughs? or how about the smiles? memories stamped by the length of time, yet precious to me as if they were yesterday. Keep your chin up and run with me baby, i can't wait to meet your mom, hard to believe she's going to be here this week, i can't wait for school to be out, to finally give a sigh of relief. praying for you Noelle, for your family, for your health and studies. for guidance from the Lord and for strength in weakness. all prayers to my best friend :)

Scared

Scared. I'm scared about a lot these days. The present, the future, everything. I'm scared that my probation will not be fully removed. I'm scared to be officially in a relationship with you because I don't feel good enough. I'm scared to get a second job. I'm scared to quit Panera. I'm scared for the summer, being on campus. I'm scared to leave you when I go home. I'm scared to be home and having to do so much with so much stress... I'm scared to leave my family and come back as a senior. I'm scared for Kendon to get a job. I'm scared that I won't make enough for my downpayment, let alone a car. I'm scared for that dream to die. I'm scared for this fall, being a senior. I'm scared for new roommates over the summer. I'm scared for new roommates this fall. I'm scared for your car to break down before you get a new one. I'm scared for you at work being safe. being treated right. being out on time. I'm scared for your family back home. I'm scared for your health. I'm scared for us getting married next year. I'm scared for finals. I'm scared for sitting with you at the graduation banquet. I'm scared because my boss Sarah told us today she's quitting; moving to human resources and we're going to get a new General Manager. I'm scared because Eric told Danielle she can't be a shift lead due to opening mornings, so I Can' tnow, either. I"m scared because they are sending her to a different store as a meat prep specialist, which I don't want to be, so I have nowhere to go now. I'm scared they won't give me morings this summer so I will have to quit when I get a second job. If I get a second job. I'm scared. So so scared. Of everything, Levi........... ='(

I love you.

*profound truth of the year* =)