Scared

Scared. I'm scared about a lot these days. The present, the future, everything. I'm scared that my probation will not be fully removed. I'm scared to be officially in a relationship with you because I don't feel good enough. I'm scared to get a second job. I'm scared to quit Panera. I'm scared for the summer, being on campus. I'm scared to leave you when I go home. I'm scared to be home and having to do so much with so much stress... I'm scared to leave my family and come back as a senior. I'm scared for Kendon to get a job. I'm scared that I won't make enough for my downpayment, let alone a car. I'm scared for that dream to die. I'm scared for this fall, being a senior. I'm scared for new roommates over the summer. I'm scared for new roommates this fall. I'm scared for your car to break down before you get a new one. I'm scared for you at work being safe. being treated right. being out on time. I'm scared for your family back home. I'm scared for your health. I'm scared for us getting married next year. I'm scared for finals. I'm scared for sitting with you at the graduation banquet. I'm scared because my boss Sarah told us today she's quitting; moving to human resources and we're going to get a new General Manager. I'm scared because Eric told Danielle she can't be a shift lead due to opening mornings, so I Can' tnow, either. I"m scared because they are sending her to a different store as a meat prep specialist, which I don't want to be, so I have nowhere to go now. I'm scared they won't give me morings this summer so I will have to quit when I get a second job. If I get a second job. I'm scared. So so scared. Of everything, Levi........... ='(