Roadmarks

You know the song by Dierks Bentley, Every Mile a Memory? Well it's an awesome song. I heard it aaaaages ago when I was like 16 and on furlough. Very appropriate, right? lol Well it's been going through my head. I know the past is the past but I can't but feel that the past is still so very not far behind me. Every important date that comes is so hard because it was only a year ago.... Anyways, spring break is definitely one of those worst nightmarish anniversaries. I can't say I'm not going into this one with heavy shadows of doom foreshadowing my steps. It makes me sad, but I hope that someday... I'll be free of this baggage... I'll be able to forget it forever... but for now, there's just so many memories.... The happy days, the scream, the tears, the pain.... everything I lost....
I just wanted to say I love you and I'm glad that I can hold your hand this spring break. It means so much that you love me enough to stay with me and that you even love me as I am. I am really grateful for you Levi. Please don't ever doubt it. Please don't leave me.

 

A diverse yet spontaneous day with my best friend. i love you little noelle, i miss you with alllll my heart. your smile made my day, it was truly wonderful and it made me feel so loved. cheese, pancakes, crepes, warm sun,  walks down the street, old stuff  :) noelle, you made my day, i love you with all my heart. im sorry i slept through your break babe :/ but i emjoyed seeing you at panera, your such a hardworking person. spring break is almost here noelle!! :) i cant wait! one more month to go noelle, one more :) keep running princess it'll be ok :)

Quotes

"When you are in love, you cannot sleep, because finally reality is better than your dreams."


"Whatever stuff souls are made of, yours and mine are made of the same."


"Love reminds you that nothing else matters."


Because I love quotes =)

Old Poem

Sometimes I think of how we met
And why, and where, and when,
And I can't stop the wishful thought
That you had loved me then.

Sometimes I think of how I left,
And how you grew to care,
And when I think of all those months,
I cannot find it fair.

But then I think of how we fell
In love those sleepless night
And I am filled with wondrous awe
Of how things turned out right!

Sometimes I think of Christmas break
Our very first embrace
The days, the nights, the mem'ries made
I feel their lingering trace.

Sometimes I think of what's to come
I haven't got a clue!
But this I know, no matter what -
I always will love you. <3 <3 <3

Our Last Saturday

The last Saturday we'll have together. It breaks my heart. I'm sorry I lost the other pictures. There were so many more. The tree. Santana. The field. I'm sorry I lost them. I'm sorry for everything.

With all my Love

Dear Levi,
Today is the third day of this week. Only three more, and then it's Saturday - even though it seems forever away, and our hardest days are yet to come. I know today will be hard. I wanted to take a minute and put up a post from the very beginning to remind you how much I love you, with all my heart; and how much God loves you, with all His heart. My bestest friend, it hurts me to know you were having nightmares last night because I don't want you to ever be scared. But I am here and I love you and I'm going to do my best to make sure you never have cause for nightmares ever, ever again... I'm going to do my best to take care of you, my little Levi... my bestest friend.... I am praying for you. Really, truly, fervently, praying. Because I know this week is so challenging... and I know how strong Satan is. Don't be discouraged. Keep your chin up, keep running... Grab my hand and let's run through to Saturday, okay? My Levi... I'm sending you a big, tight, long hug! Catch, baby! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Rainy Day Note

Dear Levi,
sooooooooooo I learned a new term today from my black high-school coworkers. Apparently, I'm "crushing" on you. =P They insist that since we're not dating, I cannot be "in love." They asked why I'm always smiling and singing, and I said, "Because people in love always smile." And then they wanted to know who, and they all knew it was you because you come to see me here. =)) And they were like "awwww.... when did you start dating?" and I was like, "Um, we're not yet." And then they were like, "What?! No way!! We can tell you guys are crazy in love. Like, both of your faces." Which I thought was totally sweet! <3 Then they were like, "So you're just crushing on each other, right?" And I was like, "Um, English?" lol Which... was such a nice conversation. =) Because it was about you. =D And I lovvvvveeee you.... or, as I get to say now: "I'm crushing on you!!!!" =DDDD (silly smile)
Ahh baby I misses you. So oh super much. I saw you from the distance for like what? two seconds? ten? GAHH. So frustrating. I'm impatient for Saturday; to jump in your arms; to get twirled around; to taste your kisses and see you laugh. Mmm. Can't come fast enough for this little girl. =)
I am praying for you.... Tonight is kinda busy but my customers havebeen so nice, babe! =) So have my coworkers. PRaise God. =)
And texting and FB dont' seem to be working... which is sad....
I miss you!!!!!!!!!
Hope you're enjoying the weather babe. =)
Huggles and kisses. =))