A Day at Our Lake

This had to be one of the most wonderful, magical days of my life. I dreamt about this lake until we returned... and it was more enchanting than I had remembered. Thorns and humidity aside, and our blistering headaches, I can't wait to go back. With a blanket. lol =) I wish I'd gotten pix of us at the mall earlier, and us eating at Chilis, was it? Mmm you treat me so well. Thank you for your love... for us... for everything. I miss you, Levi. When I dream about "someday".... this is what I dream of.

Banquet Spring 2012 Pictures

These uploaded kinda out of order, sorry. Even though it wasn't a great night for me, I am still glad that we at least came away with a few pictures and the memory of being together in public for the first time. And, your awesome shirt and tie. =) 

 

 

  

 

Just a Verse

Every wise woman buildeth her house: but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands.
Proverbs 14:1

There are things you do that really hurt me. For lots of reasons. My past. Even just who I am. My problem is that I focus on those things and let them tear me down and blow us apart. God gave me this verse Sunday. I may not be a wise woman but I do know that you are my home now, and it is going to be a lot of my own choice whether we are growing closer or falling apart, in the way how I react to things.... Being in a relationship is all new for me, Levi. I'm sorry for the times I fail you. I love you with all my heart. Thank you for never giving up on me.

Catching up...

Not that this post would have any meaning,, seeing as it is thought that i do not care about it.... but within all regards i do.. i've never blogged in my life before this nor have a heard of it. It seems a crude diary of memories, thoughts and emotions, and the attempt to inscribe it in the "cloud" the cyber infrastructure for personal use. Otherwords, its ours,,, its ment to be mobile, a place where we can meet halfway in a sense, no matter the miles. neither near or far. it brings the distance of a physical location to zero so that we are two places at once.. Sorry i havn't posted in a while, im sorry i've made you cry, im sorry,,, I'm sorry i've hurt you, to make you feel rejected, to make you feel without any worth, but i do care, and i care about this blog. but the blog is only a means to erase the physical distance. not to erase feelings... and i'm sorry i made you hurt,,, Every morning, i wish i were diffrent, that i could press control-z and undo all the mistakes i've made.. to undo the bad habits, selfish thoughts, sin, mistakes, anger, in my life... wish i didn't have my job that makes me feel shackled with weigts around my neck, to have pain every morning i awake.. wish i could be consistent in what i do, and stay consistent, to stoip being so imature to the point im no diffrent than a highschool kid. Your so far away... and i feel this dark cloud inching near and near noelle, i can feel weights dragging me to the ground, depressing me into the value of worthlessness. my life feels vain noelle, im lonely without you. i need you noelle, i need you... i'm trying to break free from this depression, to be happy for you again,,, to be who i was,,, but i just feel so vain... so,,, worthless noelle... im sorry for everything :(

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Picture Post: A Day in Nichols Hills

Earth Day, 2012

Nichols Hills, Oklahoma City

The Old Presbyterian Church off Grand Boulevard

 

 

 

Oh look!!! My best friend!!!!!! =)

  

My redbud tree!! =) My first tree!!! =)

And then... I accidentally left it when I moved dorms for the summer... poor sad little tree =/

I should probably check just in case... it still might be there, but I'm sure it's withered away by now.

Sad Noelle =/

 

The most beautiful, tranquil place ever! This was, amazing......

 

 

SO CUTE! =) My best friend. My little Levi =))

 

Awww let me come join youuu...!! =)

 

My house.... =)))

 

..... your house!!! =)

 

Pretty much the best lunch I've ever had, hands down! =D

I would *love* to go there again.... ;)))